Hello…From the Other Side

Hi guys!  Whatcha been up to?  I’ve been running, and running some more, sleeping probably not enough and redecorating my house.  It’s been fun!  Too much fun obviously since I didn’t get on and share.  I’ve been reminded a lot lately that it’s time.  You guys are too sweet!

Ignore the crying baby. She wanted the sword.

Ignore the crying baby. She wanted the sword.

So, lots of things happening.  Like I said, I went through this pre midlife crisis thing before Christmas and did some redecorating in my house.  I painted a huge center wall in my house lime green and bought the Bearded Husband a sword for Christmas.  They are both awesome!  I also love the crazy looks I get for both of those things.  Totally living on the edge over here.  For real, we spent Christmas Eve in the yard with our family slicing things up with the new sword.  So. Fun.  I really think I’m kind of like Michonne from The Walking Dead.  Don’t worry, I got this.

Let’s see, what else.  The kids are back in school…Hallelujah.

Running alone face.

Running alone face.

Now on to the other part of my life.  We are more than halfway done with the Hanson training plan.  Boy are we doing some running.  Everyday with the running and running and waking up crazy early.  I truly feel like I’m in marathon training.  (Which hasn’t helped this whole blog scene.)  I really need to be AFRAID of Michonne because I am a zombie!  However, I’m confident this race is going to be better than the last.  We are putting a lot of time on our feet.  My body feels it but I also feel stronger.   My foot and hamstring injuries are reduced to nuisances’ that I have to stay on top of, but they are not stopping me.  Even over Thanksgiving and Christmas, when I was out of town, I got my miles in.  I considered that a huge accomplishment. 

One thing I have been sliding on is my nutrition.  When I am home, no worries, easy peasy, I’m a good (mostly) Paleo girl.  Outside of the house. Ha!  What am I thinking!?  Remember how horrible DRC was because my nutrition was not on point?  Well, I must have forgotten.  My stomach didn’t.  Lately it’s been rebelling on me.  All of the training in the world will be completely ruined if I don’t stop this!  So I did. The Bearded Husband and I started the Whole30 Program, along with my local Moms Run This Town chapter.  It’s more strict that what we usually do, but we need to reset.  No dairy, no grain, no sugar.  Black coffee, the whole thing.  I already feel better.  I’m going until race day then maybe I’ll start to introduce dairy again.  We’ll see.

When I started this blog I told you I was going to be honest.  Yes, it’s a Paleo blog but I’m not perfect.  I fall off the wagon like everyone else.  I don’t beat myself up about it or consider myself a failure.  I regroup and get back on.  And hey, New Years is the best time anyway, everything healthy is on sale!

LaceI mean, here’s the food I’m up against at my parents house!  The struggle is real with my sister too.

I’ll be back on more regularly.  I need to tell you about the Route 66 Half Marathon in Tulsa.  It will be the latest race report ever but the race was too sweet not to share it with you.  See ya on the flip side! 

DRC Half Marathon Race Report!

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Hi folks!  Boy, I don’t even know where to begin!  My Rockwall Running Club buddies and I ran the DRC Half Marathon and 5k yesterday.  I have so much to say about this.  What a race. 

First, we had some spectacular finishes.  Tons of PR’s, a lot of these speed demons placed in their age groups and a couple even placed overall.  Those who didn’t run, cheered and offered support like crazy.  We didn’t need any bag check, we had little Soky to hold 20 bags.  Bless her.  When RRC shows up to a race we do it BIG!  I love it!  I even heard someone say, “Those Rockwall people are everywhere.”  Yep…

Group Prayer100% of the people in this picture showed up and gave it their all.  No question.  We also give credit to the Lord for the ability to get out of bed every day, do what we do and give Him the glory.  Pretty stinkin awesome.

Prerace, I was a nervous nelly.  I don’t even know why??  This was not my “big” race.  Wait, I know why…I knew I had to run fast and dang that is hard!  I’ve had enough of these races I knew what I was in for.  Also, time change happened Saturday night and I knew we had to catch a shuttle bus to get to the race.  Logistics make me crazy nervous.  I don’t suppose I’ll ever get over that part.  Even through the nervousness I was excited.  My plantar fasciitis in my foot felt good and my training runs had been good.  I was ready.

I planned on breaking the sub 2 by starting around a 9:30 pace, at 2 miles dropping to a 9:00 and at 10 miles, 8:50.  Ha!  THAT didn’t happen.  Oh boy how it didn’t happen.  The first 4 miles were awesome.  Then, it hit.  I don’t know what it was exactly but it was there.  I was dizzy, faint, weak…basically full on belly aching inside of my head.  AT MILE 5!!  What???  Then at mile 10 my plantar fasciitis was screaming at me.  Unfortunately, that is still the case today. 

FinishwithAlishaI fought every step after that.  It wasn’t pretty.  I cried to a poor volunteer at the water station because I couldn’t get my water bottle open to fill it will that precious Gatorade.  I cried every time I saw one of our awesome cheerleaders, when the best support in the whole wide world, Alisha, ran me in at the finish I was crying!!  WHY DO I DO THAT??  Have you ever tried to cry and run?  It’s super easy…not!

Here’s what I did right.  I definitely abandoned some of the coping skills all of our training has taught me, I definitely made it harder on myself, but I definitely didn’t quit.  Yes I finished, and I finished running.  I stopped for a few seconds a couple of times but each time, I regrouped and kept going.  I am not a quitter…WE ARE NOT QUITTERS.  There were a handful of my buddies that had the same kind of race I did.  None of them gave up.  Not one.

DRC ResultsOverall, my goal was 1:59:59 with a 9:07 pace.  I ended up with a 2:09:14 with a 9:52 overall pace.  After struggling for 9 miles I’m not disappointed in that for one second.  I’m proud of that under the conditions.

Now it’s time to regroup and adjust.  I know exactly what I need to do.  Last year at the Dallas Marathon I got a 2:04 and I felt great.  That type of race is what I expected here.  Well in December of last year I was trained for a full, my diet was on point and I was staying on top of cross training.  Guess what?  None of those things are true for me right now.  This race was the kick in the pants I needed.  If I’m going to be a distance runner I need to act like it in the other areas besides just running.

So folks…join me in this little journey to Nola as I get back to my strict Paleo diet (goodness knows that hasn’t been the case lately!) take the cross training more seriously and run my tail off until Feb 28th!  Plus I have about 10 pounds to lose.  PLEASE HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE.  I’m saying it on the internet so I have to do it right??

The good news is, Paleo focused Summer will crank out more recipes…

See ya on the flip side friends!  Oh and thanks Greg MacInnis and Beth Davis for the pictures!

 

My People

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Well, hi peeps!  What’s up?  I have had another busy week.  Good busy, I can’t complain.  I got a fair warning this summer from some other wise mom about the rat race.  I was envisioning tons of free time to hang out on my back porch and blog during blissful school hours and that is just not the case.  I find myself involved in all of these projects.  Secretly, I like it. 

However, Wednesday I was so busy running around all day that I didn’t get a shower until 4pm.  I RAN 6 miles at 4:15am!  Yeah, the folks I’m involved with on these projects appreciated my aroma I’m sure.  Remember that city council woman I spilled coffee on?  I’m pretty sure she thinks I’m homeless.  Geez Summer, can’t you just get dressed like an adult for once? Whatever, ok?

I kind of want to get all sappy on you today, but I will refrain…maybe.  Ya’ll let me just say, if you don’t have “your people” you really need to find them.  This world is a scary place and not always the nicest place.  I know 100% that God has my back.  I also know that a lot of his blessings come from the help of others.  I’m getting all sappy because a lot of great things have happened lately that were the result of my people banding together to overcome a trial.  My eyes have just been opened to how much we love and depend on one another, even with differences.  So let me just say, you know who your people are, I hope, and boy can they piss you off sometimes.  Forgive them, be patient and kind because when you need them, they are there on the front lines ready to fight.  We are meant to work together.  Now, can all of you remind me of this next time I’m angry at one of you??

Ok since I got that off my chest I’m happy to report we are headed on another camping adventure this weekend!  The weather is perfect.  It’s not supposed to rain the whole time like normal!  Well, until we get there, then it will rain I’m sure.  We are going tent camping with my Dad, sister and brother.  I’m so excited!  We are going to do all of the normal stuff and you know I plan on getting that perfect camping run in as well.  I’ll be updating Instagram I’m sure so keep a watch out for pretty scenery pictures.  As usual, I’m armed with good food so I can stay on track.  It’s marathon training time!!  I have lots to share with that as well.  We’ll talk next week!  See ya on the flip side!

Tomorrow is a New Day

My offspring really are cute.

My offspring really are cute.

Happy fall ya’ll.  Yesterday was the first day of fall right?  That’s what I saw on Facebook anyway.  Now if it can just cool off a little it would be great.  I’m so ready for tights and sweatshirts.  Oh and not sweating so bad I stink my car up on the ride home too.

Anywho, I have so much going on!  I just knew when my kids started school I would be lounging around the house during the day doing my “projects” I had listed to get done.  Yeah right.  Everyday is full!  What the heck??  People warned me but you know how it is.  The good news is, I like it.  It’s all good stuff.  I’ve never been great at sitting still anyway…makes me nervous.

I’ll tell you a little about my running life because, as usual, you’re dying to hear I’m sure.  Well, you know how I’ve mentioned we are starting the Hanson Marathon training method?  We still are but we’ve switched our focus a bit.  A few of us signed up for the DRC Half Marathon on Nov 1 with a sub 2 hour goal.  Now, to most of you speedies that’s no big deal.  To me it’s a big deal.  I’m not a fast runner and I’m not that keen on being uncomfortable either.  So, according to Coach we need to put on our big girl panties, put in the work and get it done.  That’s what I intend to do.  Oh dear.

No backing out now!

No backing out now!

Thank goodness for a great chiropractor. Grrr...stupid foot.

Thank goodness for a great chiropractor. Grrr…stupid foot.

One little snag.  I’m dealing with a case of plantar factitious.  Grrr…I don’t know why my body can’t get on board with all of my goals.  It’ll be alright.  I’m trying to be super tough. 

On to my next point, which is what this blog is about, my body is not cooperating because I’ve been eating crap.  Now, before you go giving me a hard time I told you from the beginning I’m not a perfect Paleo girl.  Um, mainly because I live in 2015 and cheese fries are delicious.  Now, don’t get me wrong.  Weekdays I’m usually okay, but weekends…oh lawd.  Come on!  It’s my WHOLE families birthday month!  You may cut me some slack, but unfortunately, my body won’t.  I have to get back on track, not necessarily because of the scale, but because I will FEEL BETTER.

I tell you this because 1) I want to be transparent 2) if you’ve been trying to stick with a healthier way of living and it’s not quite “stuck”, try again.  Tomorrow is always a new day. 

As much as I wish the scale could be a motivator, it just doesn’t always hold up when you are hungry and are faced with a plate of cheese fries or whatever.  However, for me, when I feel great it’s easy to pass up on the junk because I don’t want to ruin it.  Plus, when you are not eating junk you don’t crave it.  I PROMISE.

Of course I’m telling you this knowing good and well I’m going to have scotch eggs and beer at our marathon planning pow wow tonight.  Tomorrow is a new day!  I PROMISE!  If I want to reach my goals it really does start in the kitchen for me.  Let’s do it together!

What is your motivation for sticking with a healthier lifestyle?

I am fired up! Life is good!

HansonMethod

So things are smoothing out some.  The kids are loving kindergarten…me too.  Last week I packed my schedule completely full and honestly I felt a little frazzled.  This week I tried to cool it a little and get some projects done around the house.  By projects I mean cleaning my disgusting bathroom and organizing closets.  I really shouldn’t let them get that dirty.  Anyway, I’m doing other productive stuff too ok!

Back to the fired up business!  The Nola full is REALLY on my mind and I love it!  If you haven’t noticed I’m a fan of marathon training.  The jury is still out on whether I’m a fan of actually running a marathon, but training, yay!  It’s my comfort zone.  I like to get out of bed every morning, ass crack early, and do something that was laid out in a plan for me weeks before.  My buddies help too.  Our new term is “crazy bird.”  As in, “Man there sure are a lot of crazy birds willing to get up and run a billion miles at 4am today.” 

Oh and yeah, 4am is the new 5am for me.  The kids have to get to school super early so my day starts even earlier as well.  I love that I’m surrounded by people who are in the same situation.  No one ever considers not running because they have to be at work/school early, they just run earlier.  Again, Crazy Birds.

Ok I keep getting off track about Nola.  No pun intended…hehe.  I am changing up my plan a little from the last full.  I have to explain.  We have an awesome Coach in the running club that gives us training plans and lots of advice.  Well, I take those plans and shave miles and days off to suite my skill level.  For the last marathon I did 4 run days and 2 Crossfit days a week.  All four run days were hard days. 

Coach Barrett Hopper. He's super fast. Bless him for putting up with us though.

Coach Barrett Hopper. He’s super fast. Bless him for putting up with us though.

Well, a seed was planted in my head by another running buddy on a plan she was following.  It’s running 6 days a week.  It sounded terrible!  The more I thought about it, the more it started to make sense.  I bought the book and the rest is history.

This time around I am still following Coaches plan but I’ve also been reading this Hanson Marathon Training Method book and I’m going to follow it.  They totally match up!  Coach has been telling me the same stuff for two years but it didn’t click in my head until I saw it in print. 

I will be running 6 days a week but FOUR of those days are EASY days.  It’s time on feet.  Turns out, if you don’t go out and kill yourself everyday you have less chance of injury.  Also, your body does all kinds of cool stuff on those easy runs.  Like a part of your heart gets bigger so it can supply more oxygen to your muscles, then your muscles develop more capillaries to take in the extra oxygen.  I mean, that is super hero talk if you ask me!  AND you burn more fat on easy days.  They had me there.  I’ll still cross train 2 days a week because I do better with strength training, but it will be less intense.

The point of the training is to train on tired legs to be more prepared for the END of the race.  Hopefully this is the miracle I need at mile 21…hopefully. 

Another good thing is, since I’m still on Coaches plan, if my buddies don’t want to follow the Hanson Method we will still be together four days a week.  It’s a win/win for sure!  However, I know I have a few buddies that are doing it as well so we will have a really fun training season.  This is not something I could even fathom doing on my own. 

I know Coach is shaking his head since it only has taken me two years to catch on.  Of course, I’m at the beginning of this journey.  I may be shaking my head a few months from now.  We’ll see!

You guys ready for more recipes yet?

Seriously Summer? Get it together! More coffee is NOT the answer.

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Oh you KNOW I’m coming on today to chat with you!  Huge day here in this house!  I’m going to start by saying I’ve had an unhealthy amount of coffee.  I feel like there are spark plugs in my brain.  I kind of want to type in all caps.  No, I didn’t stand at my counter crying into copious amounts of coffee cups.  I had two “meetings over coffee” back to back this morning.  I’ll tell you all about them.  One of them involves ruining a bunch of important stuff.

So rewind back to the beginning of my day.  Obviously, unless you’ve been under a giant rock you know today was the first day of school and my little baby boys started kindergarten!  They were thrilled.  I was happy to get some time apart from the little suckers, but man I was nervous!  Not even sure about what.  Just anxious.  Thankfully, I knew a whole group of running buddies that were meeting before 4am to run.  I joined them to run away my jitters.  A good run and a prayer totally did the trick…always does.  I didn’t get a picture.  You guys need to stay on me about more pictures!  Yay, new blog goal…oops coffee again.

So anyway, the Bearded Husband and I took them to school and we got to walk them to class and get them set up.  I felt like I held it together pretty well.  They didn’t care one bit about me.  Ty thinks his teacher is pretty so he is sold 100%.  I would tear up a little, see a friend and get it together, then repeat the process.  I know I said I wasn’t going to cry!  I wouldn’t call it that per say.  More like a holy cow this is happening, kind of reaction.

They are so full of life. I just love these crazy kids!

They are so full of life. I just love these crazy kids!

After drop off, the baby and I, went to meeting number 1.  The awesome girls of Moms Run This Town set up an event at La Madeleine so we could get together and celebrate…or not…the first day of school.  So fun.  Running buddies are the best. Then we headed over to Denny’s in Royse City to have a planning meeting for Run Fest which is a 5k that will be in my town in October.  I am so excited to get to be part of it!

Here’s the thing…I met with Papa Turtle who I’ve mentioned before, my friend Amanda and a Royce City city councilwoman, to plan this race.  Guess what happened?  The minute all of the important documents were spread out on the table, the 2 year old in my lap spills the entire cup of coffee everywhere!!  Yep, all over the papers and the councilwoman’s dress.  Of. Course.  The only person who was not affected was me.  Of. Course.  They were good sports about it, but COME ON!  Get it together Summer!  I’m a child.

Now I sit here blogging all on my own with no interruptions.  Certainly not crying now.  I still have a ton to catch you up on.  I’m super excited lately because I’m going to change my marathon training up a little.  I’ve been doing some reading which has me fired up.  You know I’ll stick with the Paleo business as well.  It’s going to be a GREAT year!  Believe me, you’ll hear all about it!

 

I’m Back!!

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HI GUYS!!  I’M BACK, I’M BACK, I’M BACK!!  I know I warned you my post would be sparse but I didn’t mean for them to be THIS sparse.  Truth is, I have been super busy with the offspring.  However, I have also been without a computer.  

Queue sob story.  See, I had a little nook in the house where I could see the kids and still write.  Turns out they don’t take care of themselves that well.  As a matter of fact one just jumped off of the couch onto the other’s head!  WTH?! Anyway, a couple of months ago my little computer broke.  For me to write I had to go sit upstairs in the office.  Ha!  Alone time?  No.  So, I just complained a lot.  The Bearded Husband came through and bought me a big girl laptop!  He is so cool.  I am now sitting on the couch, blogging away while the kids act like maniacs.  What a life.  For real!  Maybe when they start school I can do the sit on the patio, with coffee and the laptop thing?  Eek!  Grownup stuff!HpandRoan

Speaking of, we are in our last week of summer!!  I’m sure some of you know there are a lot of emotions for a mom sending kids to kindergarten and preschool for the first time.  Yeah, I’m not really a crier.  I’m not sad!  I mean of course I love the little turds but I’m raising them to first, love God and second, to be productive members of society.  Um that will never happen if they sit here under my coattails for the rest of their lives.  Off to school with you to learn something.  I’ll hug them tight before they leave and when they get home.  Unless they didn’t behave, that’s another blog post!  My biggest concern is my “oldest” twin won’t have enough time to finish his lunch.  He’s a bear without it.  Hmmm, I wonder where he gets that from??  Oh, and the whole crying thing, check back with me after I actually drop them off that first day.

So on to the other big portion of my life.  Just because I haven’t been blogging of course I’ve still been running and cross training.  Currently, as you know, I’m signed up for the NOLA full again.  Definitely in training for that.  I also am planning on running the Dallas Running Club Half and The Route 66 Half in Tulsa both in November.  I haven’t signed up for those yet.  I need some money.  Since I JUST got this awesome HP setup I may wait a little while to discuss them with the husband.  Haha!  I guess this will be the test to see if he reads my blog!

Now that you are briefly caught up I’ll go parent for the rest of the day.  No worries, I PROMISE I’m for real back to chatting with you a couple of days a week and bringing you all new recipes! 

 

 

Sweet Summer Time!

SummerTimeCollageI folks!!  How are you?  Good?  Good!  I’m fine, thanks for asking.  Life is good.  Okay, I’m going to come right out and say it.  You aren’t hearing from me as much as you were…it’s stressing me out!  I don’t want anyone to think I’m another blogger who started a blog and lost interest.  I have so much fun with this!  However, these little rats in that picture up there are home 24/7.  Taking the time to sit at the computer for a while is proving to be a problem.  And the little one is potty training…so there’s that.  I want to be very honest and let you know that if this summer is a little sparse don’t give up on me.  Come fall I will totally make it up to you.  Maybe I’ll post more desserts or something. 

Anywho, man we’ve been having fun!  One did soccer camp, another is doing Lego camp, the little one started gymnastics (which is freaking adorable!) we leave Wednesday to camp with my Mom for a week, and later we’ll take our annual trip to Ocean City, MD.  See, all of you moms understand.  We have to keep them busy to keep from hanging them up from their toenails.  So?  Who’s up for a morning mimosa date on the first day of school?  This girl.

On to my fitness world.  Last time we chatted I was dealing with a stupid hamstring/knee injury.  Well, I’m ecstatic to report that I’m almost over it!!  Yay!  Last week I ran 21 miles.  I went to a new place called the Airrosti Rehad Centers. They literally used their little, harmless looking thumbs and ROCKED MY WORLD.  They go deep into the muscle and force it to behave.  As much as it hurts at the very moment it’s happening, I had almost immediate relief.  I’ve had to go back a couple of more times to get it to 100% but they are great people who got me back on the pavement.  I am one very happy runner. 

MoonlightGroupPicWith my friends and my newly healed leg we set out last Saturday night to run Moonlight Madness in Dallas.  Well, it was interesting to say the least.  I did the 10k because I wasn’t quite ready for a half.  In my head I was saying, “I hate this race.  I love running.  I hate this race. I love running.”  You get the point.  I feel sorry for the director.  He couldn’t help that the course flooded about 20 minutes before the start or that it was 150 degrees with 500% humidity.  The halfers literally had to wade through a lot of standing water.  Boy were they mad.  But you know what?  We came, we saw and we conquered.  We also decided we will stick to morning runs. 

FlexingNow, finally I’m getting back into my old routine.  Crossfit Monday, Wednesday and Friday and running Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday.  I am quite the happy camper.  Well, literally when I’m camping in a couple of days I will be, but I digress.  I’ll leave you with this little photo.  Aren’t we um cute?  Is that the word?  Maybe badass…yeah I don’t know.  Have a great week peeps!

 

Busy Body…

MeandKidsCampingThings are crazy here in da house!  What about you guys??  We are gearing up to take on the summer and we are as busy as ever.  I kind of like it though.  I’m a busy body so the more the better.  I feel like I have so much to tell you!  Ok, ok I really should drink less coffee.

Where do I start?  Last time I chatted with you I was hanging out in the gym more.  Well, I’m still injured (stupid leg!) so that is still happening.  No worries, I’ll tell you all about it.  Besides workout stuff, my twins graduated preschool, we went camping, spent some time in East Texas, started working on an outdoor kitchen at our house, a half marathon got cancelled and I stuck out the food challenge until the end.  Hmmm, maybe that covers it all.

We know how to party.  It's not a camping trip unless you sleep with glow glasses and dental floss right?

We know how to party. It’s not a camping trip unless you sleep with glow glasses and dental floss right?

 Alright, back to the stupid leg.  I have been running for a longish time and I have this pattern.  I feel great so I start to get big for my britches.  I love running and I feel good so I run a little further, a little faster, then a little further, then a lot faster and I continue down that path until I get hurt.  EVERYTIME I have been hurt from running it’s because I was skipping down that damn path.  This time is no different.  I go out and run faster and faster and faster then BAM.  It’s a hamstring/knee problem and I’m working on the 3rd week with zero miles!! 

You know what though?  This injury is a little different than the others.  I’m not depressed, moping around and growling at everyone who looks at me.  Instead, I’ve completely thrown myself into the gym and embraced the Crossfit wod’s.  Yeah, I’m having to modify some because of the injury but overall between the nutrition challenge and the days in the gym I’m seeing huge improvements in my strength!  It’s a great distraction from being off the road. 

Since I talked to you last we maxed out at the gym and I got some PR’s including a 30lb PR on back squat which was super exciting and I FINALLY was able to do unassisted pull-ups in a workout!!  Now, that was pee my pants exciting!  June will be my 2 year anniversary and I have never been able to RX a pull up wod.  Since I’m not running, I’m not burning my muscle away and I can do these things.  It is kind of fun.  Don’t worry running buddies…I’m coming back…eventually.

Oh and I totally won the nutrition challenge!!  Whoop!! It was tough.  Yeah, I eat Paleo (duh) so that wasn’t the big deal.  Oddly enough the one glass of wine a week was so hard for me!  The thing is, usually I only drink two glasses a week or so.  I can’t drink too much, I get up too early, someone telling me I was limited killed me!  Especially camping.  But I did it, and I got some money to buy new workout gear.  Whoop!

Challenge money!  Blistered, pull-up hands, and my first RX pull-up WOD.  So much going on!

Challenge money! Blistered, pull-up hands, and my first RX pull-up WOD. So much going on!

 Ok so, speaking of strength gains and nutrition I am really finding myself torn lately.  I won’t go into this too much today but this will be something I’ll be touching on through the summer and I need some feedback people!  I added carbs to my diet and upped my lifts at the gym and I gained weight.  Yeah, yeah, I know its muscle.  Everybody keeps saying that!  I don’t like it.  I wish I had a skinny runner body but that’s not the body God gave me turns out.  When I was training for the full I weighed less and my clothes were bigger but I have to say right now I’m digging having the strength and I do feel great.  I squeeze my butt, shaped from heavy back squats, into my jeans and it pisses me off.  First world problems I suppose.

Anyway, last thing.  We were scheduled to run Moonlight Madness this weekend in Dallas.  Well, it was totally flooded so the race got cancelled.  I wasn’t too disappointed because I couldn’t run it anyway.  We went out drinking instead.  I know…bad.  But man we had a blast.  I have the best running buddies ever!  I love them!

I'll leave you with this gem.  Pretty much the best.

I’ll leave you with this gem. Pretty much the best.

 

Body Image. What in the World??

 LegsYesterday morning I was sitting around on Facebook, drinking my coffee waiting on the kids to wake up, when I came across this article.  It is written by Vanessa Bennington who basically confessed that she is a female athlete with cellulite.  She says no matter how thin she gets or how hard she works she always has the dimples.  Then she goes on to explain how most women have it, what it is, that it’s genetic and basically we need to give ourselves a break.  I liked the article so I shared it.  Boy did I open a can of worms.

I got a lot of comments from my beautiful, strong, independent, athletic buddies who have firm opinions on their own body image, but I also opened a can of worms in my own head.  Haha that’s a funny picture…anyway…the article and their comments got me thinking.

WHAT IN THE HECK IS WRONG WITH US??

As women, we get up every morning, take on the day and do extraordinary things…simultaneously!  We work, we raise kids (remember how we had to be pregnant with them as well), we care for our families, we run households, we manage money, some of us work out until we think we might die, we cook, we nurse, we care for each other, and on and on.  All the while we look in the mirror and hate what we see.

Now let me say, I don’t hate myself.  I feel like I’m generally pretty dang happy.  However, I think about my body insecurities every. single. day.  Especially my bottom half and that dang cellulite.  Let me give you a great example…

I love this picture.  It shows how awesome my bearded husband is.

This picture.  You’ve all seen it.  This is one of my favorite pictures of all time.  It really captures the spirit of finishing a marathon.  The raw emotion, the struggle, the pain, the satisfaction of completion, the support and sacrifice of my husband, it’s all there.  Guess what I also saw immediately?  Any guesses?? 

I THINK MY LEG LOOKS BIG.

What in the hell is wrong with me??  That leg that carried me hours and hours of training.  That leg that just spent a lot of time and ALL of its energy getting me across 26.2 miles.  That’s what I see?  That it looks big?  Hmmm something doesn’t seem right with that…

Why are we like this?  Why are we so hard on ourselves?  Did my grandmothers generation beat themselves up everyday?  I wish I could answer those questions definitively. 

I said it in my Facebook comments and I’ll say it here.  Of course I’m speaking from my own experience, but I feel like my fellow female athletes will agree with me.  It’s not that we are vain and outside beauty is all that matters.  The issue is, we work very, very hard training our bodies.  We also read lots of articles on our particular sports and follow the professionals and their photos.  We put all of this work in, why don’t we look like them?  Because we are NOT them and were NOT made to be them.

Look at 1 Timothy 4:8, it says “For while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come.”

Maybe going forward we can try to switch our mindsets just a little?  I know this is something that isn’t going away.  But, just maybe we can try to remember that God made us perfect just the way we are.  Maybe we can try to remember to thank Him for all of our accomplishments and the incredible strengths He has given us?  Maybe be thankful for the journey and the days that we are able to get up, move and do all of those incredible things in His glory?

I’m going to try.  I’m going to try to forgive my body for it’s imperfections and teach my kids to be comfortable in their own skin.

Ok.  I feel like we all need a big group hug!  Or, maybe we need a booty bump since we’re learning to love those things huh? 

You girls have a great day and go take on the world!  Ok, ok you boys too…